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The fridge of a healthy person.
(See all those bags? There's veggies in 'em.)
Today was a much better day... started the day off on the right foot, journaling, praying, reading (just re-started Mark Nepo's "The Book of Awakening", which I cherish and highly recommend!)

Funny how doing these things makes a huge difference as to what kind of day I have. That's certainly an experiment I don't need to keep repeating in my "Life Lab"... but I do. Days that aren't started like this go a bit bumpier, for sure. Like yesterday, for example... but let's not go there.

This afternoon, I brought my Cleanse grocery list to Sunflower Market and shopped til I dropped. Had to ask for help repeatedly, felt a bit out of my comfort zone around the plethora of things I have no knowledge or experience with... all those 'weird healthy things that healthy people eat...' but I must say, I rather enjoyed shopping like a healthy person.

A tool I recommend to my coaching clients all the time is one I've used myself. Several years ago, when I was trying to change and shift out of some old, destructive patterns, I couldn't seem to get past 'who I'd always been'. So I would start each day writing at the top of my daily planner: "Today I make choices based on who I want to be, rather than who I've always been."  Day after day, I did this. And day after day, I made choices, some big and some small, as if I was already the person I wanted to become. And guess what? I became that person.

Because change happens only when we finally decide to let go of who we've always been. Change happens when we stop talking about being and start ACTING like the person we want to be. Change happens choice by choice. One good choice at a time.

Fill in the blanks as it pertains to your life and change you are wanting to create:

When I make choices, day after day, like someone who is ____ ,  eventually I will BE someone who is _____.

It's where the rubber meets the road, I suppose. And here I am again, making changes based on who I want to be (this time, a healthy person) rather than who I've been (a less than healthy person.)

So today I shopped like a healthy person. I drank lots of water, like a healthy person. I made a delicious pot of vegetable soup, like a healthy person. I ate three cups of it like a person who still has to learn portion control. But... still, I feel good about my choices. It wasn't cheese. It wasn't cookies. It was delicious veggie soup, loaded with cabbage, broccoli, mushrooms, carrots, green beans and cilantro.

Because someone who eats healthy is loving herself well.


In a world where 'cheap and easy' rules, and eating well ain't always easy, or cheap... I'm finding that my choices are actually declarations:

YES, I AM WORTH CHOPPING VEGETABLES FOR.

YES I am worth 50 cents more for a bag of organic carrots.

YES I am worth hydrating for...

The truth is revealing itself.

Perhaps the missing key, all along, has been quite simply, a radical, wild and luscious sense of self-worth. Mmmm...  I'm gonna read that again to myself, real slow and silky-like...

a radical, wild and luscious sense of self-worth.


And isn't a radical, wild and luscious sense of self-worth SACRED and SEXY?

(It's sure sexier than a hangover. Or wearing only elastic stretch pants cuz all of my jeans have 'shrunk' while hanging in the closet. Or pressing the snooze button for two and a half hours...)

Maybe I'm finally catching on.



Transparently yours,
Lisa Carmen







 
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Before the purge. Buh-bye, Sangria, Chardonnay, cheese and soda...
_Geez. I haven't even begun my Cleanse yet... only in the preparation days (three of them, written into the program. Which is great, cuz I'll need them. Lots to prepare.) I am finding myself resistant and cranky.

I have a taste for cookies.

I want hot cocoa.

I wanted to dip my carrot sticks into ranch dressing.

I got a big old dark chocolate bar for Christmas that I wanted to crack open today.


But I didn't do or eat any of those things.

I'm SO used to putting something in my mouth whenever I damned well feel like it. Working from home, that means I put things in my mouth A LOT. That would explain putting on 20 lbs this year... it's not about weight, Lisa... or is it?

It's about a thousand things. (More on that later.)

Very aware of the self-talk (self-arguing?) going on. I also started my period today so I'm edgy and moody and focusing on all the things I'll be giving up... many of them, for just 21 days as part of the Cleanse. Many of them, for good. And many of them, technically, I have already given up, starting today. Today is DAY ONE.

Here's the buh-bye list...

- Diet soda. (I'm in the Coke Rewards program, if you're wondering whether I like soda or not.)

- White sugars

- White flours

- Corn and things with corn based chemicals.

- Dairy. I went on a little cheese binge last night,  knowing it was "D-DAY". I called it "clearing out the fridge..." I am a cheese whore. Or I was, until today. Yogurt, brie, cheddar, provolone, cottage cheese, I will miss you. Who knows, maybe we'll get back together again someday. Right now though, I must stay away from you.

- Packaged, processed foods.

- Alcohol. Not hard to stay away from today. My body's still recovering from New Year's festivities. Ask me on Friday, when Happy Hour starts to taunt me.

- Cigarettes. Another 'loss' I don't mind at all right now, I don't even smoke every day, and average about one a day, tops... BUT I like to have what I want when I want and when I want a cigarette and don't have one... will I survive? (Of course.)

Luckily I learned today by reading the book, I DON'T have to give up meat or eggs, like I'd thought. So I got that going for me. Woo-hoo!

My Inner Rebel is feeling bitchy.

My Inner Goddess - I call her Magnificent Me - reminds my inner rebel that all this is FOR me, not against me. That this is a gift, not a curse. That soon i will feel better than I have felt in years... maybe ever.

I release all of these toxic things because of the promises offered to me in Betty's book and other sources... wellness. Vitality. Relief from pain, allergies. Weight adjustments. Energy... I would like to experience all of those benefits. Those benefits will be soooooooooo worth the sacrifices of these poisonous things...

AND just in case they are not... who says I can't later return to cheese/cigarettes/martini/tortillas/cookies/Diet Coke... whatever my poor deprived body just can't live without.

This is an experiment, after all.

This is a test. This is only a test. I am in control of every choice. My choices are not being taken away from me. I just choose differently, for a change. (Literally. I am choosing FOR A CHANGE... A big change.)

So my successes today...

- Today I cleaned my fridge out, getting rid of all kinds of things. Dumping wine feels like sacrilege. Tossing feta cheese felt like crime. Tossing the Cool Whip was too much... so I did sneak a finger-dollop before it was gone... actually, three of them.

Now my fridge is barren and ready to be filled with lots of colorful veggies and fruits and healthy things.

- Today I made smart food choices that honor my decision to get healthy (for the most part.)

- I also found that contrary to what I'd thought, I do have JUST enough space to spin a hula hoop, in my office, if I move a couple things... so there goes the 'not enough room to hoop' excuse. Felt great!

- I also started a milk-thistle enzymatic Liver Cleanse today.

Tomorrow, grocery shopping... 30 minutes of movement... stretch breaks, hoop breaks... more learning and more choices that will empower me on this path.

The verdict on DAY ONE: So far... so good, I suppose. Even if I am cranky.




 
Ladies and gentleman, I hereby declare myself one of the most defiant people on the planet, especially when it comes to whatever feels like rules, restrictions, limits, control and/or loss of freedom. Which could be one of the main reasons I find myself so ridiculously resistant to "DIETS". This is not a diet. Repeat after me: DIETS ARE STUPID.

We've all dieted. We've all lost weight only to see it creep back.  There's nothing wrong with us. It's science.

Let's do this differently.  Let's change.

I know that you know that I know what needs to change. I can make a list of things right now that for me (I can't speak for you, in fact I invite you to create your own list as soon as you're done reading this.) I know that while I do, don't do, eat or don't eat these things on my list, I am not at optimal health. I know making these changes will make me feel better. I know these changes will even support my releasing extra weight.


KNOWING IS THE BOOBY PRIZE.

It's the DOING that makes things happen.

However, I'm also going to be very realistic about things this time.  Changing is about sacrifice. It's about deciding and letting certain things go. The word 'decide' originates from the root words "to kill." Think genocide, suicide, matricide... etc.


When we DECIDE to do anything, something's got to die.

So I created a list. And I got real with it. In the first column I listed the changes that need to happen, the things I am currently feeling prompted to release. In the second column I asked myself a very important question:

Am I willing at THIS time in my life to release this 'whatever'?

Some of my answers were YES. Some of them were "for 21 days, sure I can start there." Some of them were "hell no."

For example...


I am willing to release diet soda and the occasional cigarette I have clung to for no good reason.

I am willing to completely give up alcohol for 21 days, during my Cleanse. (More on that later.)

I am also willing to completely give up dairy and animal products for 21 days, as an experiment.

I am NOT willing to give up my  cup of morning coffee with coconut creamer at this time.

And I'm OKAY with that.

Your turn.
1. Make a list of all the things you are feeling led to change or release at this time for improved health and wellness.
2. Get super honest with  yourself, and negotiate terms for these items. Now? In a little while? For a little while? Never?

Let's start there,

 
It started with me being in a bold mood and following a whim. (Come to think of it, most of the awesome experiences I have start that way...)

See, I've been 'trying' to get healthy for years now. Every year, around this time, especially, I have felt motivated and full of resolve. I then privately attempt to get myself 'in shape', lose weight, eat better, break old habits, become a healthier version of myself, and sometimes it works, for a while.

Most of the time though, I don't get very far off the ground. It dawned on me (we'll call it a DIVINE DUH!) that what I've been missing are the very things I am so hell-bent on as a coach...

- support
- accountability
- community

I am a people person. Frankly, going-it-alone just doesn't keep me interested.

I'm also a right-brain, pleasure-seeking, rebellious creative, so strict diets, rules, restrictions, and anything that feels like 'control' sends me climbing out the proverbial window in search of FREEDOM!  Here's the deal:

I want to get healthy while feeling free. I want to have fun while doing it. I want to learn more about myself in the process. I want a healthy relationship with food.  I want to release some of the habits that have gotten in the way of being healthy. I want to develop new habits that don't feel like suffering, that give me pleasure and make me feel really, really good.

So I sent this email to my SacredSexyU mailing list, and also blasted it all over Facebook.
What started out as a declaration has become a movement...

Many people wrote me immediately following that email saying "YES! I want this too. I'm so ready!" Many others said "Are you starting a group?"  Hmmm... I thought. I hadn't thought of that. Then, I thought of it til I couldn't think of much anything else and SacredSexyHealthy, the next stage of my evolution (and yours?) was born!

I'm better when I'm supported. I'm better when I am in community. I'm better when I'm accountable. Can I be accountable to you?

I invite you to follow this blog as I explore all sorts of things, as I get more real than I ever have about food, self-esteem, body image, movement and  that evil four letter word: DIET. 

Think of it as part confessional, part exhibitionism, part healing, part soul work, part program, part party. And you're invited.



    About me...

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    A natural born supporter of growth and expression, I love to create happiness, cool experiences and inspire others to step into their most magnificent versions of themselves.

    I want to reconnect the disconnect, heal the rift between flesh and spirit, settle the score between right and wrong, diminish my inner critic and love myself best I can.

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